Book Review: Vagrant Verses, Serpentine Summers

Vagrant Verses, Serpentine Summers immediately introduces “a grimy side street of Bangkok” with enticing lyricism. The poet, Pasckie Pascua, invites the reader on a soulful journey but admonishes to “leave heavy baggage and unnecessary documents behind.” He investigates themes of love and loss and peace and politics. He plays many roles as a poet, a romantic, a philosopher, an activist, a mystic and a rock and roller. But “I don’t believe in love,” he writes disarmingly. “I believe in fire.”

Throughout the manuscript he writes with the intensity of a hot coal waiting for a breeze to ignite a flame. He smolders like ancient incense of sandalwood and cedar, his words mingle in a sweet smoky haze which spiral across each page and reveal a surprising strength and meditative melancholy. “I am both strange and familiar/I am recognizable like the wind/no shape, no color, no name,” he writes in a sage-like tone. On one page he blazes a tale of “a beautiful village muse with … sad eyes” and later he blasts fiery fury at “programmable hellos that strain… $10 phone card rituals.” He enjoys contrasts in the manner of love and hate being two sides to the same coin.

Like a Shaolin priest from a 1970’s television series, he drifts from one lonely horizon to another writing “I do not have a country.” Yet he finds solace in this wandering, “because all countries are mine.” For a moment you believe he could walk through walls and show places that cannot be seen and taste water that cannot be tasted as he transports you to his “village’s crystalline mountain brooks.” Rest beside the campfire of his words and hear his poems. Hold the book to your ears and let him tell you stories you haven’t heard. Stagger under the weight of Pasckie Pascua’s poetic trance.

These Vagrant Verses bleed from deep within him like his own blood. “I do not have a poem/because all poems are mine,” he writes in the fashion of an American Zen master. Vagrant Verses, Serpentine Summers burns with memorable lines but it is not merely black words on white paper. The collection of poetry exposes a window to the poet’s soul through the smoke signals he places along his journey’s path. He leaves words in place of footprints.

(c) Matthew Mulder. All rights reserved.

First published in the March 2005 issue of The Indie

Essay: iPod, therefore iAm?

Everyone desires to be loved or at least tolerated. People want to be different yet still belong to a community (however small it might be). But when society embraces technology to accomplish this basic need there should be cause for concern. The advent of the internet and new technology connects the globe in so many ways, but it has also lulled people into an artificial sense of purpose and meaning. Andrew Sullivan’s article in The Times titled “Society is dead, we have retreated into the iWorld” touches on the reality of self-imposed isolation as he ponders the iPod culture.

For those who are unfamiliar with iAnything, a brief summary is required. Back in the spring of 1998, Apple Computers announced the arrival of its first Bondi blue iMac. It was a new personal computer, which featured an all-in-one design (combining monitor and CPU) with an aesthetically pleasing package. Prior to that all personal computers were institutional gray boxes requiring a power strip for all the hardware. Apple offered a revolutionary machine that eventually paved its corporate path into the entertainment industry.

Enter iPod in October 2001—a portable digital audio player to replace the Sony Walkman and Discman. The iPod is basically a battery powered external hard drive with earphones, which enables you to listen to over hundreds of MP3 audio selections as you walk, ride, run, sit, skate or recline.

Andrew Sullivan, former editor of The New Republic, admits he owns and uses an iPod. He writes, “I joined the cult a few years ago: the sect of the little white box worshippers. What was once an occasional musical diversion became a compulsive obsession. Now I have my iTunes in my iMac for my iPod in my iWorld. It’s Narcissus heaven: we’ve finally put the ‘i’ into Me.” Is the iPod phenomena Narcissus? In many ways it seems practical for those radio surfers whom switch to the next FM station when they don’t enjoy a certain song, commercial or idea. Maybe it’s more personal branding or expression of individuality or merely a status symbol.

iPod’s technology replaces what used to be called “dub tapes” which, simply put, was your own personal 90-minute soundtrack extracted from a mountain of audiocassettes. Yes, that was the period of technological history between 8-Tracks and CDs.

During my high school years, I used to dub my own cassette tapes with all my favorite music. I had one cassette with mixes of Motley Crüe, Whitesnake and Def Leppard. Another cassette might have songs by Paul Simmon, U2 and The Chietains. And yet another would have samplings of The Oak Ridge Boys and Johnny Cash. A plastic grocery bag housed at least a half dozen 90-minute dubbed cassettes representing my own personal soundtrack. What drove that desire to require a personal soundtrack? Maybe it was the need to be relevant, cool or at least accepted? The irony of wanting acceptance and demanding individuality resides in all of us.

My music tastes have expanded (if not matured somewhat) since those high school days. But to withdraw into our own insulated iWorld seems reclusive – almost cowardly. Andrew Sullivan goes on to write; “You get your news from your favourite blogs, the ones that won’t challenge your view of the world. You tune into a satellite radio service that also aims directly at a small market — for new age fanatics, liberal talk or Christian rock.”

Not only personal iPod soundtracks but now technology has empowered anyone with internet access the option of personal internet publishing thanks to Web logs (commonly called “blogs”). Over 6 million blogs seem to harbor the same desperate need to be heard, coddled and yet still reside in a small favorable cyber community. Joy McCarnan, author of karagraphy.com, states; “The mentality… that irks me most about the blogosphere lately has been ‘I have a blog; therefore I am.’ I am somebody. I am a deep thinker. I am loved… life finally has purpose, and — by necessity! It’s a given! — I will be remembered. And it can degenerate into elitism. ‘Us few, not you.’ “

The elitism Joy McCarnan describes concerns me most — sort of new technology bigotry similar to racism. Elitism by its very nature leads to isolation and misrepresentation. Ms. McCarnan strikes at the very heart of the issue. Will iPods bring purpose and meaning to life? Does blogging mean you are loved?

Andrew Sullivan continues, “Technology has given us a universe entirely for ourselves — where the serendipity of meeting a new stranger, hearing a piece of music we would never choose for ourselves or an opinion that might force us to change our mind about something are all effectively banished.”

Should we fear new technology? No. Technology, like garden tools, should be used properly and not abused. You wouldn’t use a spade to open a bottle of wine, would you? Of course not. The “little white box worshippers” maybe seeking control over what they chose to hear as a means to define their existence. The end result is that they become a lonely, empty person with piped in tunes to lull them into consumerist passivity.

I am not one of the 22 million iPod owners. Not that I’m opposed to the idea. And it’s not that I’m expressing Neo-Luddite tendencies. I do periodically listen to internet radio stations like listener supported modern alternative rock station Radio Wazee (www.wazee.org) where I can hear “Relearn Love” by Scott Stapps, “Gorillaz On My Mind” by Redman And Gorillaz, “Boulevard Of Broken Dreams” by Green Day and Nirvana’s “Heart–Shaped Box.” My local favorite internet radio station is 88.7 WNCW where they play everything from Buddy Holly’s “That’ll Be The Day” to REM’s “Final Straw” to Townes Van Zandt’s “Black Widow Spider.” The reason why I enjoy iTuning these Web radio stations is because I am introduced to new artists that I normally wouldn’t hear outside my scope of friends and influences.

Likewise, the serendipitous meeting of strangers on the bus or downtown fills me with a greater awareness of others around me. I begin to understand my neighborhood and community. So, I listen and learn that there is more to this world than an insulated iPod existence. Mankind deserves more than another hip, cool status symbol.

Maybe it’s time to cut the digital umbilical cord. Go Neo for a couple days or weeks – unplugged from the iMatrix. Remove the white pods budding from your earlobes and listen to the bark of the neighbor’s German shepherd. What is she telling you? Is she warning you of a trespassing squirrel? Hear the bus passing en route to the transit station? It must be 4 P.M. The bus always passes by the house on the hour. If missing out on iPod, iShuffle or iLife makes me uncool, then I’m okay with that. The meaning and purpose of life does not come from an iPod box or a Web log. Nor should I be defined by experiencing iPod coolness (or lack there of) or blogging personal observations. The world in all its grit and glory is too big to ignore and life is too short to retreat to a cyber void.

(c) Matthew Mulder. All rights reserved.

First published in the April 2005 issue of The Indie

Poem: Saturday Night, Coffee House

Saturday Night, Coffee House

The awkwardness is complete—
strangers sitting side by side
with nothing to offer but body heat
on this cold winter night;
and the only thing that
connects us is my brother’s wife
and the wooden bench we sit upon.

Conversation is embarrassingly
fumbled with references to
the chai we sip;
and at long silences we sip
more chai and look
around the coffee house
for more material to
discuss,
or some distraction
to fascinate our senses.

(c) Matthew Mulder. All Rights Reserved.

Originally published in Rapid River Art Magazine, April 2004

Interview: Eva Scruggs

It was early February when I visited Eva Scruggs at her River District studio. The recent winter storms had swelled the French Broad River above normal levels and I watched the ominous river on that cloudy afternoon as I drove to meet her.

Eva Scruggs welcomed me into her studio and we exchanged pleasantries. She offered me beer, tea or chai. “Chai would be great.” I said as I retrieved some recording equipment from my canvas messenger bag. She prepared a cup of chai and sweetened it with honey and added soy milk. She offered me the warm drink then sat down in her white floor chair and sipped her beer from an old mason jar. I pressed the red “record” button and began, “Tell me a little about yourself…”

“I guess,” she said. “I started oil painting at the age of six.”

There followed a brief discussion about art school. Eva told me that she had majored in art at the College of Charleston and later received a masters in art education in Tennessee. After that, she took some time off. I asked her if she thought it was important, as an artist, to unplug from art-making.

“Yeah, well, I had to for financial reasons. So, I mean, it isn’t that I ever really wanted to just focus on teaching art. It’s that I had to teach art to make money to feed my habit which is doing art.”

It seems that most of the artists that I know work a day job to fuel their creative passions. Maybe it’s not possible to be a full-time artist. Maybe juggling between art-making and waiting tables is necessary for artists.

“If all I had to do was be here in the studio and paint,” she said. “I would probably go crazy. I would probably get a little too self absorbed. You know how you can really drift into your own world. I need that world and at the same time it helps to keep… balance. So, I teach and I do organic farming during the summer time. And I’m a mom.”

“I really like to teach. I teach at AB Tech and I really, really feed off the new energy of new students… fresh ideas… There is something about the farming thing, too. I have to have at least a certain amount of it, you know. So, no, I wouldn’t want to paint full-time. I think I would go crazy.”

Our conversation weaved into an unsuspected path of artists being the true scientists and modern prophets. But I’ll save that for another time. I wanted to know what direction she thought art education is heading. She suggested that there are two branches of thought. “One is more academic, more exclusive amongst artists. Lots of MFA programs are focusing on what’s relevant to this century or even this half of century. But to me it seems kind of elitist. It seems like that’s going to be a view of art that only a certain amount of people can understand. It’s art for artists.”

“The other, which is sort of my path… is art to the people. Part of the reason I am a figurative painter is because I know that people relate and understand figurative painting. Common, average people understand basic symbolism. Part of my thing… is being able to communicate with people, everyday people. Not just artists who are going to understand the breakdown of elements and principles. So I paint… paintings that… have messages. I don’t paint them for someone to buy. I paint them to express this.” She gestures at the paintings around her. “I’d like people to see and understand and relate. That’s what all those biblical paintings are kind of about, too. Let’s rethink this story. You know, turn it around in a different point of view and modernize it to some extent.”

At the mention of the biblical series, Eva appeared more relaxed, more confident as if she had arrived in her sanctuary. She took a drink from her mason jar. It appeared she was ready to discuss her biblical series.

“Well,” she paused and looked at her hands which were covered in dark fingerless gloves. “It seems like when I started with the biblical theme… I was working on a different series. I was working on the states of human emotion. Trying to capture different emotions… through expression.

“Anyway, so the last one I did, of that series, was a self portrait with my child. After I painted it, I recognized it as a madonna, and I painted in the background a scene from the WTO protests in Seattle. That’s where it all got started. It’s called ‘The Jaded Madonna.’ The madonna is holding this child and she’s obviously concerned, and the child is open, wide open. But behind the mother… the police, decked out in riot gear… smog in the background from the gas that they’re releasing. So, it was kind of a statement.”

“And then it just sort of clicked in my mind,” said Eva as she motioned with her hands. She seemed focused on some point on the floor. “This is something a lot of people will relate to. It’s a biblical theme. It’s a classical theme. People look at it because of that and then… if you can get them in that far then throw something else in there that talks about modern culture. You know, it’s just the juxtaposition that makes a strange commentary. So, I feel I could run wild with that theme.”

I sipped the chai then asked her to tell me about her recent painting series.

“I’ve been working on a dream series just because I’ve had these reoccurring dreams throughout my life. I’m not exactly sure where they come from. But I figured that’s a way to address them, and maybe make them go away.”

“It’s not that they are really bad dreams,” she continued. “I usually have these water dreams where I’m swimming. I can see the top of the water and I know I’m almost out of air. So, I just keep swimming and swimming. But I can never quite make it to the top and I start somehow recirculating my air and… breathing in the water. It feels really good. Anyway, that’s what that one is about…” she said as she pointed to the painting over her right shoulder.

“And that one” she pointed to another painting across the studio resting on an easel. “An image I’ve had in my head for a long time.”

We spent more time discussing ideas, life and art (which I may write about later). But I knew she wanted to do some painting that afternoon. So, I thanked her for the chai (complimenting her on the way she prepared it), packed up my recording equipment, and left Eva Scruggs in her studio with the visions in her head that desired to be translated into pigment on canvas.

(c) Matthew Mulder. All Rights Reserved.

First published in the March 2004 issue of The Indie.

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germanheit: A beautiful little village in the snow 🙂 Freudenberg – Germany. Freudenberg literally translates to “joyhill”. Isn’t that nice? The type of houses are called “das Fachwerkhaus” btw.